Monday, June 22, 2015

Let's Just Be Honest: June 22, 2015

So not sure if yall remember but I was taken off my depression med about a month ago and instead of immediately putting me on another one while decreasing the other I had to go fully off of them. Since then, I was put on another I'm doing a lot better but I don't feel 100% me and I hate it.
I really don't care too much about things right now. I'm just here, doing whatever to pass time. I gotta fight to do the things I normally like or would do. I have my moments of true enjoyment and stuff but I'm not happy all the time. I still stay positive but I don't feel myself smiling inside.
I'm sure my opposite sleep cycle and easily exhausted doesn't help with all of this. At least I'm not having bad thoughts or wanting to throw things but I'm not happy where I'm at right now. I'm psychologist thinks this is more situational than clinical depression, if she's right boy do I hope I get my stimulator soon!
Anyways, that's what's up with me right now. Waiting on insurance to approve my stimulator they said it takes 4-6 weeks and it's been 1 or 2? I'm going to be blogging more often, even if it's just expressing what I think. The post might be more frequent and smaller and less flashy because it's easier to add pictures and everything on my laptop and these post will be typed on my phone instead.


  1. Having depression, I too share your frustrations! What is a stimulator?

    1. This comment has been removed by the author.

    2. It's a pacemaker like device that goes on your nerves and treats pain. It's called a neurostimulator, stimulator is shorten.